I feel extremely emotional but in a good way. For the longest, I barely felt emotions. I was blank and empty, only occasionally and rarely feeling moments of intense anger.
Right now, I just feel really excited and happy. Really happy. Super happy! I just want to hug someone. Anyone. Everyone!! I can't remember the last time I felt this giddy. A part of me is terrified though, like something bad is going to happen because of this, so I'm going to make sure I make someone else happy while I'm at it. Pass the torch, y'know.
Hmm.. thinking on it. I've always been unsure if I was a good person. Morality is pretty subjective, after all. Yet some part of it makes me confused. There has to be something objective about morals, some way to measure it. Bad people can do good things the same way good people can do bad things. What makes someone a bad or good person, seeing how behavior isn't a valid way to measure. Maybe it's a function thing, like MBTI. Internal shit that just influences action as opposed to actions. Reminds me about reading Lord of the Flies in 8th grade. Instead of a final test like we were prepping for, our teacher just asked 'Are people born evil?' At first my initial question was 'Why do people have to be born anything?' but now the question is 'When are people porn?' Think about it. Say morality is something humans inherently are. Does that become active in the womb or is it within a soul or maybe once they hit puberty?
Even the dumb questions I know I won't find an answer to only add to this happy mood. I can't wait to see tomorrow.