Simultaneously nervous and excited about my upcoming cross-country move to start grad school. Part of me is afraid I've gotten myself into something I'll regret and/or won't be able to handle; another part of me is cheering myself on, reminding me that I've wanted this for years and telling me I'll pull through the difficult parts with persistence and the right attitude.
I know the feeling. Best of luck to you, fellow grad school student!
Forget the dead you've left; they will not follow you.
The vagabond who is rapping at your door, is standing in the clothes you once wore.
I feel both happy that someone finally has listened to me, but worried it is just a temporary thing.
I (and others) can change things and introduce ideas that can make things better and allow us to accomplish our purpose and make the work individuals do, result in greater value...but I need politics and ego to not intervene. We have a wealth of untapped potential that simply needs a frame. Like seeds, given guidance, structure and direction our people can flower into something amazing. With each seed that flowers, a thousand lives can be touched.
However this requires the first steps of trust-you must teach people, then structure opportunity and identify goals, then give them the chance to fail fast, but fail small...if you do so they will learn quickly - and then far surpass your expectations.
I was feeling nothing really all day until I told myself I need to listen to my emotions so I can make good decisions and actually care about my life and give myself some accountability.
I then started to almost regret it because the anxiety and fear came back strong and I was sort of pleased that I got negative emotions so I can stop slacking off and realize the consequences of not studying/doing homework. But then I was like I get it. But then I remember the advice for 4's with this simple and condensed slogan I made up: don't look inside, look outside
I started to calm down as I paid attention in class and removed primary focus on my feelings. The girl I then liked (in the relationship thread) was throwing some pretty obvious signals and at once she gave me peace after feeling immense pleasure. I felt calm. I won't give all the details but yes,
Whatever I do, no matter how often I try to think the situation can be changed, it just doesn't work out.
Sometimes I'm so fearful of doing this new method because everything else hasn't worked out and people are volatile unlike objects. If an object explodes it isn't personal, it just is that way.
Need to be patient. It just isn't my time. Just isn't.
HAPPY! I finally got my laptop to connect to the internet again! It is connected to the crappy not secure network but--- Ill take it! Tapping troubleshooter and searching through network settings and help thingies online 40000 times finally worked. It is going to be so much better not having to hike to the library all the time for computer access. Yay