Frustration. Damn, relaying these back-up plans in my head's only making my self-esteem plummet. Honestly, why would they agree to this plan? It's entirely simple and foolproof but I need to get their entire consent. They barely even know or care about me, so there's no way they'd make this plan a reality. I wish I had the power to correct my mistakes.
I feel proud of myself today. The more I exercise my Fe with others, the better I feel. People seem to like me the older I become and the more I find confidence in my own skin, even if I still have very bad days. I am learning to touch others casually and not feel scared when they touch me casually back. I am learning how to nod and smile appropriately when others talk to me. I lay my heart on my sleeve and don't fear of it getting shattered anymore. I spread my love for helping others around and it seems to make so many people's days that it also makes my day happier in return.
Daydreaming I will feel the coolness on my feet.
I will let the wind bathe my bare head.
I will not speak, I will have no thoughts
But infinite love will mount in my soul