my eyes hurt because I was at the ophthalmologist for 3 hours and was getting them dilated then pried open and having lights shone into them the entire time and like uuuuuuugh because I have to go to a specialist on Friday and they're probably gonna do the same thing all over again but like AHA because now we sort of have a clue what's up and it all makes sense but yeah today was pretty eventful so I also feel like a lot of it didn't even happen ya know what I mean
I had anweird dream about this site where I was having a fight with the mods and losing dreadfully and just trying to calm myself. So I had to just wake myself up and check and calm myself down and Im glad to recognize it wasnt real and was all in my head because I felt reallg bad sad and powerless and Im again... Glad for it being a dream.
Im rubbing my eyes subconsciously in that way toddlers do and nestling my nose into my pillow and I just wanna SLEEP!
But its... 5Pm... So... No.
No. Just no.
Oh and Im pissed because @Oaky is MEAN and is AFK on vent and he got me all excited and now its a huge let down that I just dunno if Ill be able to handle.
And Im in my giant 4xl smock thingy that I got from walmart that can literally fit two of me inside and that I could probably go camping in if I wanted and or inflate and use as a hot air balloon or blimp or yeah so its comfy and its making me laugh in a tired way that sounds like Im being squeezed like a rubber duck.
Oh and because Im tired I thibk I can estimate that Im making like- in comparison to average- like 75% of my normal amount of sense. Which is higher than my 25-55% thatIget when I log on in the middle of night with my drugged consciousness so its all ok