Bored. Bad for feeling bored. Like I want to start on a project or something but know I won't have the energy to complete it-and even if I do start to complete it- I will just end up hating it because I won't find it good enough.
Like I need to crawl back into bed. Like the thought of doing nothing is the most compelling thing there is, but also the most defeating. That I am just not good enough and never will be- and therapy is just me trying to manipulate myself into accepting my own ineptness. Its me distracting myself from all my failings by pandering to shallow successes.