Thank you so much for the posts, I've read all of them and they're seriously a lot of help. Even if you guys don't have advice to give, it's amazing how comforting it is to know that I'm not alone. And just as a little update, I've given it more thought and I've decided that I'll continue with college instead of taking a break. I have a habit of dwelling on dark thoughts when I'm alone, especially when I don't have any schedule to follow, so it would probably be healthier for me to step outside my comfort zone and just go.
It's crazy how stressed out I get when I try embracing that change I want, though. It feels as if I'll like... disintegrate. So then I crawl back into my shell and give up with that "it's too late" mantra circling around and around my head.