i believe i am better when i am more open. it is a state of my own being more so than it is purely a contingent mode of relationship. but perhaps it must be a slow and gradual process, and i must be more aware of my own limitations and adjust my expectations in the moment more constructively.
i am not sure where this goes from here. i get pretty fucking excited whenever i hang out with entps and the ideas start flowing. it is a need that is equal to my need for feeling, but does something wholly different for me.