Mm i think, to obtain the unobtainable. The rest are perks along/after the ride, but they like to go from nothing to something in someone's eyes. It's as though it shows them that they are truly unique enough to break through.
A lot of people can desire that, but i'm under the impression it is on a whole other level for enfps.
I'm intrigued by introversion in others too, and I know what you mean about disliking your extroversion, like maybe you wish you could be more self-contained because you feel like you need other people? I know for me personally I'm embarrassed a lot that I talk too much which leads me to...
Yeah we kind of lack boundaries, heh. I've been criticized for it, but I love other open people too.
I don't think you're INFP FTR. I think ENFPs can get depressed or have self-loathing just like anyone else. People who say that being happy 24/7 is a characteristic of ENFP is probably naiive. I think there's also a difference between Enneagram 7 and Enneagram 4 ENFPs.
You said it best. revolve could be an enfp but an enfp with enneagram 4. Basically looks like an infp to an enfp 7. I find the enfp with enneagram 7 seem to be happy a lot more than enfp with enneagram 4.