Are there many other NF journalers out there?? (or hey, non-NF-er's too? :-)
I started journaling while I was in college, although my college entries were few and far between, and usually amounted to summaries of semesters, or 'highlights' of what had been going on.
I really dove into journaling on a regular basis post-college, beginning in 2000, and have continued fairly consistently/regularly since then. I probably have about 10 completed journals at this point. I began doing it as a way to 'document' my life, because I figured I'd forget a lot of the stuff as I got older, and that it might be fun to revisit the stuff and remember what I was doing X month of X year, and where my mental/emotional state was at that time. However, I find that it has turned out that it's more something I just DO to 'release' my thoughts; it can be clarifying for me. And often-times, I have no desire to go back in time and read about where I was at.
But at times, I do want to look something up, if I've forgotten a detail about something in the past that I'm curious about, and when I HAVE re-read what I've written, I've had either two reactions: either I laugh at how I used to be and how I used to think (example - in the short time period of a few yrs in college where I totally turned S in an attempt to ditch my N. :-), OR more often than not, how I truly haven't changed. ;-)
Like I was just re-reading parts of a journal from 6-7 yrs ago, and I'm pretty much exactly the same, deep down, as I was then. I still revisit the same themes ad-nauseum. I optimistically hope I'll eventually stop the circle of revisiting the same stuff, but at this point I'm thinking it's doubtful? :rolli:
My themes that I can't seem to get away from:
*Life purpose being in question, and confusion on what I want out of life
*Loneliness, feeling disconnected from others, not knowing 'how' to bring people into my life, and craving those connections
*Being emotional and desiring to be less so and desiring to be more 'stable' in the grounded, practical sense
*The Job Issue
That sorta stuff. It's a good reminder to me (although at the same time kinda lame ) that I'm the same ME I've always been (so at least I'm consistent? :-), but at the same time, it kinda blows that I'm still revisiting the same stuff, so it would appear I haven't made any longterm headway. It makes me question my ability to grow as a person!! :-)
So --> Any other journalers out there? Any patterns/insights you've found out about yourself through your journaling? What are your reasons for journaling?