Much of my attention to this matter has been strategy and attempts to get this person to meet in person to sign some papers to help me (and her).
I feel like a lot has happened since my original posts, a lot of time and events. I am much different now than then.
For now and for a while how I feel will depend on everything else in my life, some good days and some tough days. Once in a while there will be a really good day or a really bad day.
It isn't just not having her around daily which is pretty big, and it isn't just about the way she did it which is pretty big. Her doing this destroyed years of hard work and planning. It has hurt innocent 3rd parties greatly. It has forced a lot of changes multiple people who didn't deserve it.
I don't think anything but time will prevent excessive thinking about it. Time and other successes in my life, some of which will take time because of her actions.
Thankfully other aspects of my life are pretty healthy. Waiting around isn't something one would choose first when in my situation. Coming here can give me different perspectives and can also allow me to interact with and help others too which has some therapeutic benefits too. I did underestimate how difficult it would be to get that in person meeting.