the reality is i never got to know her much before we got together - the chemistry was too good to be true and we weren't capable of being just friends before being lovers, so i never knew her as anyone other then that... until now. i think i might have a thing or two to learn from our typological cousins - the INTPs...
right now i am moving on, but i'm not closing the door - if she ever wants to explain it to me she can. in the mean time i am going to follow PeaceBaby's advice - i have a canadian economical consultent who know this stuff very well and are trying to figure out with me to open an RESP acount for a canadian minor without me being a canadian citizen and without a canadian bank acount, and i have another guy who might help me figure out how to open a canadian bank acount without being canadian, and i have a canadian lawyer and a canadian social worker who both might be able to find out the existng RESP fund and how i can send it money if the other options dont pan out. i'll find the loopholes and find a way. i can't believe i just assumed you can only have one RESP acount per child... thanks again @PeaceBaby
i may not be able to be there for him and give him all i want him to have without changing how she feels, but i dont think anything i do or say is going to change how she feels, so i'm going to give him the one thing i can do without changing the way she feels.