Ugh, there's so much more I wish I could be. Some, possible. Others... just wouldn't be me. Or maybe just a much better version of me.
-Motivation. This is my biggest problem. Its torture to do almost anything that I don't really want to do. I've been slacking off so much, not going to school, not looking for a new job, but... I'm kind of okay with being like this. It's other people that make me feel like I shouldn't.
-Confidence. I think I am a pretty confident person in most cases, but I am insecure of my abilities and the whole world just kind of freaks me out sometime. I'm scared of what I'll encounter and how my dreams will shatter before my eyes when I realize this is totally not what I thought of it to be. I just want to be able to just do it and not worry about it so much.
-Patience and control? I get upset and worked up pretty easily. I tell myself in my mind that I shouldn't and I need to relax and be in control of my emotions. But deep down, I feel the livid energy building inside and I can't help myself. I cry, get immature, lose my temper, nervous, then I feel stupid and apologize a lot.
The perils of being NFP!