If you dont know what love is
If you get frequently told "you only show me your love when doing that special activity xyz"
When you constantly feel like you have to be on the watchout for making no mistakes
When you have not a single clue why she wants you after 4 years
When you dont even know on her birthday if its was 25 or 24 years
When you are labeled to be someone without humor and if you make a joke you are labeled malign
When you sometimes feel like you would have to end your own whole life just to make things right for her
When you constantly say things the wrong way tho you didnt mean no harm at all
When she is the most important thing you ever achieved in your life and you'ld rather die alone and let vermin feast on your rugged body than to ever loose that person again that makes you happy by just ringing your doorbell ?