I've noticed that I usually stick to the same kind of people when it comes to relationships.
I have a nagging suspicion that deep down I am trying to constantly make myself miserable. I will elaborate.
I usually become friends with people that are relatively smart, patient, usually shy, and Damaged.
(These are not the ONLY friends I have, but the people I USUALLY look for as friends)
This is not intentional, it's just an INNATE tendency of mine. Most of my close friends happen to be this way. It's extremely aggravating for me. >=/
The quality that they ALL have in common is that they are ALL damaged somehow.
I become friends with them, delve into the friendship entirely, and expend every ounce of my energy trying to help them out and make them happy.
They usually meet me when they're like, rly depressed.
So i help them with whatever issue they're having, totally emotionally committed, and when the problem is solved, somehow the friendship always seems to end.
It's like I'm the band aid.
I noticed that I usually shy away from "emotionally healthy" people who are already happy.
So that kind of sucks, because in the end, when they're healed and I've served my purpose, they throw me away.
You know what I'm Sayin?