I relate to this... my inability to express myself to the extend I wish to continually frustrates me. An even to a large extent, the same is found in written communications. It's better in that I have more time to dig out a better word or two. But it still comes out as vague and thus unsatisfactory when people do not understand the nuisance of what I meant. I have less difficulties in free verse/poetry... but only because I'm unrestrained by form. And one expects the use of non-standard meaning behind each term. Perhaps this has something to do with the fact that I'm not a native english speaker despite that fact that it's the primary language I use.I've written this before on here, but I think the discrepancy is that there are a million things within me that I am unable to verbalize on-the-spot, or explain in a way that I am satisfied with, so what I DO say is a very condensed version of everything else that I'm not saying. So what I do say, while it might be eloquent, or succinct (while sometimes vague), is a shadow of everything else -- which is frustrating. Like, verbally I might say only a handful of sentences to describe this post, whereas obviously when I'm actually sitting here, without pressure or time limitations, I can dig through my thoughts a lot more and be a lot more thorough.
But my childhood... I believe I was a blend of NF and NT. I wasn't quite sensitive as imaginative. I spent a lot of time creating stories and adventures in my mind. This plus building things... lego, wooden blocks, train sets. I've been told I dislike dolls. I had a total of one doll... Stuff animals are a different issue... And of course my reading. I engulfed chapter books.