runvardh
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- Joined
- Jun 23, 2007
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- MBTI Type
- INFP
- Enneagram
- 6w7
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/so
I can kinda relate to the dragon thing...only if you shrink it a tad *is short*, lock it in a mighty safe and then throw it into the ocean. Then pump it with vindictive (Too emotionally switched off to be self aware), dark, indulgent and boundlessly selfish.
Sometimes big things come in small packages. I'm kind of liking only dealing with the desire to watch things burn; relatively easy to control though I do have a few outbursts here and there.
Almost to a t, only emotionally unavailable even to myself when unhealthy.
Do any of you find there are close friends (even best friends) who'll bemusedly tell you they've realised they've never seen you get angry, not once?
Hmmm, a few friends have seen me angry. Apparently they either get scared or they want to help...
thank you for the compliment!
and how wonderfully descriptive you've made your world, even though it sounds sad to me. i had a short time in my life where i viewed the world in such a way, but it's truly not in my deep nature to think of it like that. i feel like you can make your own world and rules for it, and if you wish, never be too deeply distraught again on where it takes you over.
then again, i've been told by some to stop "running away" from my problems. i don't see it as running away as much as it's identifying them, and then going from there on what will make it work/make me feel better.
You deserve it.
I typically have to put effort into muting the effect some things in my environment have on me. Sometimes it requires more energy than an actual outburst. As long as you learn from the problems there's no reall issue in how you're dealing. Just sucks when your emotions get stuck on something before you even get a chance to have a genuine thought about it anywhere from a microsecond to a minute later.