i'm realizing that developing the ability to deal with stress more productively, withstand it without losing ground, breaking its waves and staying determined, focused, etc is really the principle thing i need to focus on to give myself the resources i need to do something productive. and a little more discipline.
routine, to some degree, does help us. employing many different techniques to control ourselves like our own marionette, but still maintaining a nice healthy god complex of self-determination and free willl. everything they say about infjs (and intjs probably too, for that matter) needing to spend serious effort and attention taking care of their physical health rings true for me. it's too easy to totally lose sight of Se, to get stuck in an NiTi self-justification loop, to become selfishly motivated e4 Fe examples of unhealth or undergoing a nice Fe implosion and going into hiding like an e5. we have to confront everything first with Fe to become strong, to develop confidence and composure and faith in our ability to navigate the external world. this is the first foundation for us to test ourselves and become realistic, to absorb negativity and be able to deflect it and redirect it into something more productive, losing the fear of being unable to control and maintain our own autonomy, our own values, and our sense of purpose.