I find that I cannot integrate with a group of 'normal' people. I'm not talking sensors. I'm talking people, Ns included, who grew up in a community. I moved here when I was little and still 'outside.' I guess having an all-introvert family doesn't help, either.
Our community is -very- religious. In our town of 13,000 people we have 7 Lutheran churches, at least 2 Methodist churches, and a handful of other churches from other Christian denominations. One thing my mother pointed out is that it's harder to fit in, even as a family, if you don't go to a certain large church and participate in all their church-sponsored activities. We are Pentecostal, and go to a church that has, maybe, 20 people in it on a full day.
This recently came to be a reality-slap in the face when I tried communicating my ideas with my current class. The only response was 'you really throw us for a loop sometimes.' At that point I receded into a frustrated pseudo-depression. Almost like a relapse from punching into shadow-ESTP mode. (At that point I have to reply to -everything- and I become a w=one-liner machine. Funny or not.)
My Fe is particularly runty since all of my introverted functions were nurtured by our pseudo-outcast situation. I have a few friends, but only two that I trust enough to talk to about intimate matters (INTP and ENFP). I also have my father, INFJ, but the generation gap is enough to make that rather shaky.
I dunno, I just find myself getting frustrated when I try to become friends with people or try and fit in. It's like I came from a totally different planet. I guess it's a typical INFJ thing, but I wish I could at least work out of some of it. Heck, an INFJ I know, and struggle to get a date with, seems to be rather popular (In the commonly-known sense, not the talked about a lot sense) and that rankles me even more. Not to mention I seem to barely register on her radar. She's also the more straight-developed INFJ type, so there are even different signals THERE.
I think that is a long pre-text to ask how to develop my Fe enough to understand social queues and other things. I'm just too frustrated at being the 'weird smart guy in the corner who stares off at into space.'