Need help understanding my INFJ mom.
I think my INFJ mom is going insane. My only hope is that I am completely misinterpreting what she says and does. So I'm asking here.
Father passed away about a year ago. And I think mom is going insane without dad. Lonely. Yesterday I saw her standing at the dictionary by herself saying, "God loves me. I am capable and loveable,..." and a long monologue of that, which to me says she believes she is NOT capable and NOT loveable and NO ONE loves her!
You only affirm what you don't believe. No one is verbally stating their belief in Gravity. No one is praying, "I believe in Gravity. Gravity will keep me on the ground. I do not have to be afraid of floating away because I know Gravity will always be there for me."
You only affirm what you don't believe. The moment you have to affirm your belief in something, you've lost. It's over. The very act of affirming your belief in something is an admission that there is doubt. That is may NOT be true.
And mom keeps telling me she HAS to believe in a "Personal God". Which to me tells me she is INSANELY LONELY! She needs someone to personally love her, and without dad she doesn't have that anymore.
The only other possibility is I'm completely wrong. That to an INFJ these words don't mean what they mean to me. So I need an INFJ to tell me if I'm right, or to explain what it is I don't comprehend. Mom has always been a church going person. She says it just feels right to her. She recently changed churches when her Presbyterian church (PCUSA) was overtaken by staunch conservatives. She switched to the First Congregational Church (United Church of Christ). And I've always been an atheist.
So I'm hoping someone can explain how her words and actions mean something completely different to her than they do to me, since she's INFJ and I'm INTP.