Ectuse
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- Apr 15, 2009
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- MBTI Type
- INFP
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I have spent six years in isolation. After a series of panic attacks, I decided to be more social online as I have no personal contacts who understand me. I initial thought I was a INTP and made a foolish decision to post on INTPc, not realizing how poor my esteem really was. I wanted to somehow mesh as I made a lot of posts, at the same time as being true to myself.
I didn't realize how sensitive I really was, as my expressions were seen as annoying to a few, and eventually I tripped a flame wire. I just couldn't back out, and at the same time wanted to gather opinion of my posts, to no avail...
Due to the effect, my emotions are now quite unstable, I fear due to my constant isolation since childhood, as well as my lack of any sort of relationship, has helped render me extremely inept socially. I want to get better and figured posting can help, but I find it difficult to act like a rational and what I think are decent metaphors are being perceived as childish by a good number I think. I also forgot to mention this issue has sprawled out before on online chatting which was why it was a long time since I chatted at all online.
Posting after realizing I am a INFP might have been strictly out of habit. I think one reason why I might have had a lingering attachment to rationals was, that I was raised with this idea that I was supposed to be a nerd, as I enjoyed playing on the computer. I of course do not think I can go back to INTPc after this.
Comments?
I didn't realize how sensitive I really was, as my expressions were seen as annoying to a few, and eventually I tripped a flame wire. I just couldn't back out, and at the same time wanted to gather opinion of my posts, to no avail...
Due to the effect, my emotions are now quite unstable, I fear due to my constant isolation since childhood, as well as my lack of any sort of relationship, has helped render me extremely inept socially. I want to get better and figured posting can help, but I find it difficult to act like a rational and what I think are decent metaphors are being perceived as childish by a good number I think. I also forgot to mention this issue has sprawled out before on online chatting which was why it was a long time since I chatted at all online.
Posting after realizing I am a INFP might have been strictly out of habit. I think one reason why I might have had a lingering attachment to rationals was, that I was raised with this idea that I was supposed to be a nerd, as I enjoyed playing on the computer. I of course do not think I can go back to INTPc after this.
Comments?
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