I saw that the NT's have a thread called "Hidden thoughts" and I thought it sounded like a cool idea. Obviously the original thread is about "dark thoughts" but how about turning it a bit more defined for obvious reasoning?
A dark thought consists of something you might want to do but find yourself either:
A: Too afraid to do it.
B: Too oblivious, since it wouldn't matter in the long run.
C: Too empathic.
D: Too demanding of perfection.
E: Too afraid of how the population/society/public would take it.
F: "Know" that it is wrong.
G: The idea was in fact boring.
H: "Not human".
I: Not in the interest of others.
K: Too easy.
Ok, I can begin. I'll even state the reason for not doing it for every "option".
For about thirteen months ago I went through a psychotic(?) phase of life. I did spend my time at home and came up with a plan. A plan to make myself anonymously celebrated and HATED.
The plan consisted of killing one human being in each country (where as "states" counts as countries) and I would do it in an artistic way. First victim would be seated in a wooden chair, spread legs and have carved paintings into its belly. I would take a photo with a polygram camera for each step. The chair would be preferably gray.
Also, I'd keep my victim alive so I could record my victims screams, until the dying moment. The rest of the room should be as little blood splattered as possible. The real art-piece is the body, not the room.
Next, I'd take a picture of the way from the room to a supermarket and/or big paper company. Then I'd put up the pictures just too far to see the next one but close enough to see where to go next. (So it becomes an adventure. :P)
Also; I'd set 16 different chess programs to battle each other and place a randomized country on each. Then choose the country that comes out winning the tournament.
And with all the tapes I'd gather through out the years, I'd make tunes out of them and when my "murders" are written off I'd sell the music and be rich enough to do something else.
Now, realizing the plan. I went and bought a pair of pants that would conceal as much as possible about my features, a scissor, sculpting knives, an operation knife, plastic bags and a few other things. (They are now disposed of.)
I came to the conclusion that I should choose a random victim, a place that is not too far from home but far enough to be considered "safe" for my own self.
And that was about the time where I realized that I couldn't kill someone. Much less random person. So I gave that plan up.
Reasons: A, C, D, F, J
I've been thinking about something. A lot of people in this world are quite eccentric, me included. So, how about facilitating a farm of pregnant women and then make pies of the babies they produce. I have not gone as into depth in this plan. Even though I would love to taste human someday. Oh well. I'd never be able to go through with it anyhow. :/
Reasons: C, E, I
A few times, my father almost made me so angry that I have been just about to pierce him with whatever object nearby I could find. I didn't though.
Oh, and I've been thinking about killing him to be able to live on his money and life insurance. Also under the psychopathic phase of life. (where I did nothing but lie to myself and others :/ )
Reasons: A, B, C, F, K
I got more but I'm thinking that it might upset some of you and I would not like that. It sure upsets me.
Remember; This has not happened and there's no reason to think it ever will.
Any one else had such ideas/plans?