And this is how I will prove that I'm crazy...
I'm an ENFP, Fi is my supporting function and due to a few personal reasons, I've grown to mistrust it to the point of anxiety.
I was wondering if there was anyone out there that didn't idealize this particular function as the magical-human-connection-/-door-to-the-collective-unconscious-thing.
Have you ever wished you would feel differently?
Am I alone in viewing that part of me as a sickness or a cage? Something that does not really have its place here on earth? It's like a current, a feeling that everyone is connected and worst of all, it's judgmental and righteous. It's impossible to rationalize with it. And exercising it feels so -right- as if getting high, like a drug. But I also know its incorrect and I could never begin to justify it or define it.
I hate it. I want out of these "spiritual feelings". How does one unhook from a function at all?
Affirmations? Tried that.
"I will not see the connection."
"Everyone is fundamentally alone and isolated"
"There is no right or wrong. That's just your feelings, stupid."
"The mechanics of the universe are cold, distant and impersonal"
[Problem is I say it... I know it.. but I don't -believe- it.]
Or.. have I really, officially lost my mind?