(again, i've originally posted in INFPgc forum, but i'm also curious as how people in this forum would respond to this dilemma, as i'm sure also that this is a dilemma not just to NFs, but probably NFs in generals. please discuss. thanks)
I've noticed several threads running here that essentially talks about the same thing, and even I myself am currently still having this troubling dilemma, and yet it has caused so much fear, doubt, and worse of all, procrastination & long time of inactions on my creative part, that ironically only made me feel much worse & helpless, like I can't do anything and only depend on the circumstances put upon me.
And the dilemma that I have (and also I'm sure a lot of NFs would be able to relate a lot here) is the Art versus "real-world".
What it is, is basically about our seemingly epic struggle to choose between these two extremes:
1. Creating a FREE art where nobody can ever dictate us
2. Creating an art that has to be 'usable' in "real-world"'s notions, ie: art that would or could "make money only" , art according to the expectations of other people, especially the 'big' key people usually in our organization, or corporation.
It has essentially been the same ever-going-and-disturbing dilemma of me, thinking of what should I really do with my so-called immense music passion & talent.
Unfortunatelly, doubts & fears of this dilemma have clouded me so much, that I've felt that I've become the king of procrastination in it: it's been a while I've created or made any new compositions, although more & more people every day (online and offline) kept saying super-positive things after hearing my music compositions, and even encourage me a lot..
But these questions would often come & haunt me again:
"what is the point to create a piece of Art (in my case, Music) that wouldn't sell , and hence, made me broke ??"
"how would I make my parents proud if I become a penniless artist ?? "
"what is the point of creating a piece of Art , that later on would only be criticized by 'big key people' in the industry as being "not going to sell", or not according to the mainstream/commercial standard of now with its pre-made 'formula' ?"
"what is the point of creating a very-honest piece of Art, whereas the society only seems to want 'shallow' pieces , and that even sells a lot like crazy compared to those honest Art (ie: mainstream rap about blink-blink world, cars, 'bitches', compared to soulful jazz or indie-pop about peace, meanings of life, for example)
All these questions have seriously instilled so much FEARS & DOUBTS (as usual the case with INFPs ), that what's worse is, I've almost stopped making Art (music) anymore.. Yet, I am still currently stuck at a job where I dislike so much and have zero passion (ie: my furniture factory job) , because I am too afraid to move-out from my comfort-zone to be a 'penniless/broke musician' .
Anybody here experiencing the similar or same dilemma with me (in many artistic fields) ?
Is there any way out to combat and eliminate all these ever-present questions, fears & doubts ?
What is the best practical solution, according to you, who have conquered all these fears & doubts ?