I can relate to internal struggles.
I get stressed by my standards for myself at times, and the 'should and shouldn't' thoughts when they start circling. Also living inside my head too much causes problems if that starts to happen, and the constant analycing. There's internal conflict also, but it's something I don't really notice all that much. Except the differences in selfesteem.
I've been having trouble now from retreating inside, behind my walls and from self expression, opinion forming and such shutting off even from myself. I feel rather empty or dead inside right now, and much like a puppet.. It's a defence mechanism that got activated awhile ago, but I can't seem to turn it off now. It would probably ease if I found something meaningfull again, and kept away from those who trigger it.