The best example I can think of is my theater class. Around my closest friends, I'm the weirdest kook in the world. I'm constantly doing stupid little improv games and surprising them with the most random humor. In theater, this is what everyone's supposed to do. My theater class is especially large, and it's a very open space. You're supposed to be weird and outgoing there, but I really need that time to warm up to a new place--and with a huge room where you're supposed to be silly, I don't think I ever would. Well, the other day I forced myself, because I knew I'd never warm up to it naturally. It's terrifying. I'm exposing the part of myself that I reserve for my best friends, and I'm doing it in front of others. Something about it feels off. I'm trembling and sweating, even if I'm good at what I do. I leave theater class feeling like I've been electrocuted. It's a feeling of being overstimulated with attention, performing, and adrenaline. When I get home, I'm kind of irritable and detached, so I have to go find a place to relax on my own.