This is what's known as "stinkin' thinking" lunareclipze ...
Originally Posted by lunareclipze
Here's one of your posts on ask.fm. Since you have it linked in your signature, I am going to assume it's ok I've been reading over there. And I want to share it here.
Everyday is the same, all my life dreams are shattered, lost all because of the one demon I must face every single day.
That demon is my reflection.
I find it hard not to cringe when I look at the monster I have become.
I try my very hardest to go about my day, but no one seems to let me forget.
The stares I get, I can see right through them. I know exactly what they think when they look at me.
The comments, no matter how frequent I can never become numb to.
The mocking, the ridicule never ceases. It just sends me deeper into my oblivion of sadness with every comment.
Gone are my dreams of having kids, falling in love, having my first kiss, gone.
Everyday I pray and pray that a miracle will happen, that I will just wake up and this curse will be lifted off of me.
But for I am not a naive fool, I know it will never happen.
I see no way out of my dreadful situation at the moment, so I have chosen but to live as a recluse until such a time where I have enough expenses to fix what needs to be fixed so my dreams can come true and they will magically glue themselves back together.
What I want to point out to you is that this entire poem is rife with what's known as cognitive distortions. Cognitive distortions are simply ways that our mind convinces us of something that isn’t really true. These things you tell yourself are not true. @bold: You don't know what people are thinking. You really don't.
The scope of what I could tell you is utterly beyond a single reply in this forum.
What I suggest you do is let your Mom and Dad see your link above, or your posts at SAS and ask them to help you find a counselor who deals with social anxiety and body dysmorphia. It will take work and time and just plain old getting older on your part, but you are worth investing this time into in order to see a much clearer picture of yourself. Only then will it be right to make decisions about plastic surgery. Plastic surgery is not a panacea - it's not a 'magic cure' to what you feel ails you.
What ails you right now is all in your mind. It really is. The great part is that it's something that you have an element of control over. You can improve your life.
Sending you my very best wishes that you make the choice to get the help that you'll most benefit from.