I can't help but to think we were in similar boats.-_- I just don't want to be called ugly every single place I go in broad daylight.
I remember when I was in high school I used to think the same thing. Literally. I can thank family and a couple of key experiences for this, but that's another story. Every time I saw a girl laughing I just KNEW they were laughing at me. The pointing. The stares. Comments on my nose (we share big noses) or ears.
The thing is, I look at pictures of me in high school, and I was actually perfectly normal looking, perhaps even good looking to the women who liked a 6'2", black haired, blue eyed, large nosed, kinda big eared, fairly athletic soccer goalie build. But I had (and still likely have) body dismporphia. In my eyes, I was a hideous monster. Every day that I dealed with people the evidence of my hideousness just mounted higher and higher. I considered myself so ugly that I noticed every time a girl thought I was weird looking (thanks to el nose-o and los ears-o), and even likely misinterpreted occasional interest for dismissal. Meanwhile, any potential positive sign was either filtered out, down played, or I simply assumed the other person didn't have good taste or felt pity upon me.
Now... I won't insult your intelligence by saying that you aren't a 1.5/10 when I've never met or seen you. However, please take a moment and check out the video below: