Honestly, I feel like it's a game of "damned if I do, damned if I don't". If I don't reveal myself to people, they get hurt and they criticise me for not trusting them. But if I do reveal myself to them, then they get judging and they criticise me for being wrong somehow I hate it!
This is getting me mad and depressed. I'd better go to bed before I get myself all worked up in a knot