Well, I'm post, so I'm going to drunk.
I think if I keep posting to whatever threads have been recently posted in I could get warned for being a troll! So, I will stop and say sorry.
But lately, I have been bothered by trolls on here. Now, I have suffered multiple psychoses starting from being trolled on MBTI forums. And now they are claiming psychosis is a good thing. And it;s not like I haven't considered before that it could be a good things, because I have and that's why I didn't want to go on medication, because I thought I was growing and developing, but other people don't see it like that so I had to go on medication to stop causing problems for others. And I guess I was fine with that but I really wasn't because I didn't want my thoughts stunted like that.
But honest to God, what do you expect? You're going to strip someone of their personality and make them believe all this horrible shit is going down... and I mean horrible shit was going down, and horrible shit is going down all over the world. And I just can't deal with that. I can't deal with being the cause of horrible shit, I have to help to stop that shit. And, my passive nature gets me into trouble.
First, someone underage folk ask me to buy alcohol for them and I get caught doing it... but luckily, no repercussions except for some adrenaline being released. And then, I get talked into signing up for a charity... which is fine except that I feel that I was manipulated into doing it because I just couldn't walk away from the person and I HATE BEING MANIPULATED if you didn't know already. So, I'm stuck with that and I don't know what to do about it.
But I think it is small matters in a big pond of big matters so it doesn't bother me too much. But I don't know what to do about all of my life, so all I can do is meditate, right?
And I don't know whether to stay on these forums or exit completely because I don't know whether these people want to help me or harm me... and it does me head in not knowing. I assume the worst of people even though I am very trusting. I guess I just don't trust myself to do what is best for myself since I keep getting into all this trouble.
So it's like.... FUCK WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO CAN ANYONE HEAR ME IS ANYONE OUT THERE.... no.