I heard that you denied my proposal to help you with promoting your most recent event with a short video. Regarding the fact that the videos the two of you made to promote previous events didn't exactly get much views, I understand that wasting some more megabytes on potentially unfruitful project is something you wouldn't really want to bother with. As someone who considers herself a complete maestro on anything creative except for music, I also understand that you wouldn't trust anybody but yourself with such a risky activity.
Too bad that the two of you forgot something important. Something I can't tell you in real life.
You know what you forgot? You forgot that your previous videos had the value of a video of some random dude jerking off to the mirror. Your previous videos were nothing but 'HELLO! I AM COOL! THIS IS MY FRIEND! HE IS COOL! THIS IS OUR GROUP! WE ARE COOL! LOOK AT US POORLY REENACTING A SCENE FROM A RANDOM MOVIE THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS VIDEO, JUST TO CONVINCE YOU WE'RE COOL! Oh, and we're organizing something, but we don't care, just tell us how fucking cool we are!'. An inside joke, at best. But nothing that would make anyone waste more than ten seconds watching your video, let alone get to the point where they get to know what it's all about.
I know, it's not an event I helped organize, so why would I bother? Well, did you notice how we're running out of sponsors? Okay, and did you notice how our biggest sponsors are giving us less and less money? Now tell me, what do we exactly have to offer potential sponsors? Yeah, we send newsletters every now and then, we have some space left for advertisers on our website, we have a magazine that has little over a hundred readers. But let me tell you something: this is shit. No one ever scrolls down to the bottom of the newsletter to see who our sponsors are, no one ever visits the page on our website dedicated to these companies and don't get me started on the magazine. We could go broke, you know.
If we don't want to go broke, we need to have something better to offer. Something people can and want to share, something that reaches more than just the ones in our circle jerk. I mean, YOUR circle jerk. You never include me in any project, even if I was supposed to be responsible for it in the first place, but you insist you take over all of my tasks, because you're 'so bored' and everyone feels bad for you. All you ever let me do, is just stand there facepalming, while witnessing how you fuck up everything. Did you notice how I never fuck up everything, except for my life maybe? You should know that I'm not here to stop you from doing anything at all, like you seem to intend to do with me, not at all. I would just like to reduce the damage so, you know, people would eventually consider giving us some of their money.
One last thing I can't say in real life, but I just really need to get off my chest: is this because I rejected you two years ago, ENTP? I was already wondering why none of the actually good footage I provided for the video I was supposed to edit in September (but you to insisted on doing it because you were 'bored') showed up in the eventual video. Just the boring stuff and some inside jokes. And why you forgot my name in the credits of the video you made in May. It's not that I hate you, you're just bad at hitting on girls. In fact, you're kind of rapey when you do that. And I'm sorry that the fact that I'm good at pretty much everything I do (except life) made it harder for you to deal with it. Now grow some balls.
Great, I just discovered by pure chance that, more than one month ago, I received a highly important letter in the mail and wasn't informed of it by the person who opened the mailbox. As a result, I've missed the deadline for responding by more than two weeks and never answered the phone for an interview. Now I might be about to lose a significant amount of money.
[ Ni > Ti > Fe > Fi > Ne > Te > Si > Se ][ 4w5 sp/sx ][ RLOAI ][ IEI-Ni ]
I couldn't even concentrate on my assignments. People only need 1 hour to do the assignment, and I need 5 hours to do the same assignment.
Assignments here and there every week, I am feeling so overwhelmed.
And I didn't even sleep yesterday night, I was busy rushing my assignments, and I still couldn't finish those assignments. I am also so sleepy and tired from the lack of sleep, and ended up didn't go school today. Sighs.
Met a potential soulmate but all he can say is "what's the catch?" Because I'm nice, health focused, giving and pretty.. So what now? I have no catch? Do I make one up? Jeeeeze he's like me he's used to being able to pinpoint a potential problem quickly "INFJ".. But I can't find it in him and he can't find it in me.. So instead of soulmate which we should be thinking this is shaping up to be a stalemate.. Because he doesn't know that when he doesn't know something it's actually GOOD.. Argggggg I'm like 99% good.. And of all of the men I've talked to and potential dates he is the one person in my life who has made me feel normal.. Just being me.. I was literally thinking the other day.. I need someone who has come to the same conclusions with a completely different perspective.. And tada wtf I wish he was older.. Maybe I'll disappear a year and then come back.. I wish he wouldn't have kissed me.. The kisses were too good dammmmmit...