So often I wanna say FML or FTW, that I would give up if I knew how, I wanna go back to footy pajamas and hot cocoa because this grown up world is too fucking hard, too much to deal with, too stressful! Right now, it all feels like way too much, way too much pressure, way too much shit, stress, needless crap that really doesn't have to be this way.
What's funny is last week I was arrested for something and as odd as it sounds, in that moment, as some 6 foot 13 inch tall cop that outweighed me by 125 pounds was tossing these cold, hard cuffs on me. I FELT THE FREEST I'VE BEEN IN OVER A YEAR!!! Since that time, I've slept, I've actually slept without being worried about what kind of crap I was going to wake up to. I've been able to eat, without an upset stomach, I've spent 6 hours straight playing a game with my kid, I've completely let go of the illusion the last year of my life was built on, I've been freed in a way I'd forgotten as I lost myself.
Shit, I'm positive outlook group aren't I, this is getting pretty positive when I should be ranting. Oh well, whatever, I can always find something to bitch about and always find something to be happy about, normally in the exact same things. Ahhhhhhh, I have... no, I guess I really don't have much to bitch about.