you guys might have been wondering- why is an estp online so much instead of out DOING something? It's because I've been *trying* to write a few papers for class! Unfortunatly, I've had the most serious case of writers block EVER- I can't f*&king think OR concentrate on the boring subject matter at hand!
This isn't so bad in my classes with merciful instructors, but for my class where my prof is a guy who makes House look like a softie? I'm so screwed! He already wrote on my rough draft that my paper was shallow and that the only thing I did right was my footnotes (thanks guys! ) and now I'm supposed to have a whole deep insightful paper about federal pesticide laws? I'm supposed to come up with a grand, overarching THEORY about this? WTF man?!?!? I've been trying- it's just that everything I've done for this class has fallen flat on its face! I'm kind of at my wits end about this and am actually ready to give up on something for the first time in my entire life!
What's a shame is that I've never failed a college class- not even when back when I went to class every day still drunk from the night before. I've been Dean's List/Semester Honors for 2/3 of my semesters here and people EXPECT for me to succeed! I'm almost ready to wash my hands of this and accept the F that I'm sure that I'll get even if I try by now because this class is going to drive me back to drinking *pulls hair* I've gotten by so far in college feeling like I've pulled the wool over all of my professor's eyes- I never filed with adaptive services here and I've actually never really opened my text books- I've always gotten by in class by listening and remembering- but my professors never realized this. I feel like everything has caught up with me now though and that it's finally time for me to get what I deserve.
I guess that my point to this is anyone have any advice, or better yet, can anyone cheer me up about this a bit?
sorry for the long rambling rant here guys I feel like a total failure and I appologize to all of you for whining here and taking up your time...