The implications of forum addiction. I think I've just made some realisations about community in all forms that has come to me. The unawareness and it's pitfalls. There is some serious psychological processing by nurture going on. To give from beyond the mirror of your self. And how one becomes vulnerable. Scary. But also think it's the real thing. Letting your consciousness relax. If it is real, it can be rewarded. Actually I'm kinda fascinated about this. Gotto do some more random thinking. And what outcomes may be and why.
it seems like my 'i hate humanity' moods have been occurring more frequently lately, and yet i'm definitely becoming more extroverted and need. i also want to live in a city more and more (which doesn't make sense if i hate people). i feel like more of a mess of contradictions than usual and it's freaking me out. i feel like I need to make sense and others should also.
Being in a city is nice because there is the energy of a lot of people and a lot of things to watch and see and experience, but you don't HAVE to interact with it directly unless you want to most of the time. It's actually pretty nice for introverts.
Your kisses, sweeter than honey. But guess what, so is my money.
But feeling helpless about particular situations, such as traffic, the weather, death, and with other people and their decisions makes me feel as though I'm losing my shit.
Anyone else ever feel that need, when feeling helpless, then to control the crap out of everything else going on in life?