I feel like the emotional gas has been turned down. I sense clarity of mind, yet at the same time, this clarity is transparent, as if my soul is made of steel. I see the world for what it is, just how screwed up society is, and I feel like it has failed me. It has failed to meet what I expect it to be, and even though I am a part of it, a part of me doesn't feel emotionally involved with it, other than the looming thought that somebody somewhere looks with pride that they are satisfied that they have done a good job terrorizing another group of people. All for what? Because of the notion that one culture is superior to another. I've grown so used to the disappointment that I just don't feel it anymore. I don't even elicit the same emotional reactions that I once did when I was younger. I used to be reactive, but now, I seem neutral to things. Am I freezing up inside? Music is what saves me from turning to a complete stoic.
“Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings -- always darker, emptier and simpler.”
― Friedrich Nietzsche