I suck at romantic relationships. I can get idealistic about them, but when I actually go through the motions, I want the other person to make sense. I do feel emotional about romance, but I think that I might be more in love with the idea of what the person could be, rather than what they are. Whoever says that falling in love is like what happens in the movies isn't telling the truth because falling in love takes work. It takes acceptance of the person, flaws and all. If you do not accept the flaws, and focus just on the good parts, then it's infatuation.
One thing that perplexes me is that I tend to fall harder for people that I can't have, or the chances of being with them are slim, than I do with those that pursue me. Maybe it's just the fact that I fall into the trap of romantic yearning... maybe I end up thinking that yearning equals feeling in love. But is it really love? Not really, because it is just infatuation if I am not involved with the other person. But they say that by definition infatuation is short lived, and most of my crushes have been long-term ones.
I feel dissatisfied with the results I've had in relationships. At first the relationships are wonderful, and I feel like I am soaring, but then I quickly fall out of it and start yearning for the person to be the idea I see them being. I wish to change this, to make sure that I find someone I feel satisfied with.
Love seems to be one of the rarest commodities these days.
“Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings -- always darker, emptier and simpler.”
― Friedrich Nietzsche
Oh well I left the eggs outside and forgot to put them in the fridge for a few days. I boils them for breakfast, they didn't taste so good, now I'm in a daze somewhat. They were in the pantry for goodness sakes, totally made my morning complete!