"My generation is zero, I never made it as a working class hero" "I once was lost but never was found"
I just don't really get what happened. I mean I guess post-9-11 hysteria really did it's number, and I supposed growing up under the watchful surveillance and eye of the police state and constant surveillance really did a number, but did the older generation really care at all? I don't think they really did their job, they stopped caring and became too concerned with their families or bills and mortgages.
I guess too, they really managed to trick just about everyone and has gotten us all to believe that we really have made progress and have taken liberalism cloak and dagger and turned what appears to be on the outside that, and use it against everyone.
I suppose the media really won out too, and did a good job of convincing everyone that the civil rights period in the 60's, 70's really failed horrendously and they were all simply immature, drug crazed weirdo's and they really sold out because they thought it was best and then it all become appropriated and has become really only come to stand for some kind of a right of passage or adolescent period that teenagers inevitably "grow out of" when really it has nothing to do with that. I guess the Baby boomer's just became like their parents or everyone gives up? I don't know.
I think that in general (as in bigots aside) people want to see other people succeed. They want to watch other people make it and they want good things to happen to them. People want to see other regular ordinary everyday people like themselves achieve their goals because it reinforces for them that the world's not always a shitty place and that it's possible that they can one day get to where they are, too.
"P-please don't stare at me like that. I get so...terribly shy."
Sorry, I probably shouldn't have said that. I suppose I just can't have hardily pretend that is place is not horrid and I can't really get on the side of being neutral about that fact. It's not so much the area, the place, or even the geographic spot, but really what it stands for or means. I believe it to be just about everything wrong with society today and that would sum it up.
In actuality it's not even that I'm having a "hard time" or that my experience has been negative so much as it's a hostile and not a very place at all. You could remove my experience all together and just look at Vancouver from a completely removed or dry and cynical perspective and it would still be the sum of parts that I have prescribed. I don't think people treat each other like real human beings, there at times seems to be something in the air and it feels like everyone is on something. It's weird, and there's something alien and mutant about it. It's not reality at all, and really it's a hail and bastion of it's own kind, it's own self anointed mock diamond. It's like, I don't know, a Fugazi? it's totally like fugazi.
Anyway, I had my a point last time or at least I was wondering since seeing my photos as well if you have seen me ever or have heard any bad rumors. I don't know if there is, I just have been worried about that. I get weird attention from women and some of the people here.
But yes, I probably offend you. I was thinking about this before, and I realized that there have been many times in my life where perhaps those around me didn't listen or believe me and thought I was wrong only to come around and completely agree with me years later. I don't think I'm really wrong. I may be venting too much but it's beyond frustrating, it's beyond acceptable and infringes on my human rights. Sorry.
But it's true no place is perfect, but I think there's reasons for that sometimes that are more then naturally occurring.