I guess the 3's thing is that they work very hard at maintaining their image and will not stop working. When I get depressed I procrastinate I imagine and I curl up sometimes just sulking unnecessarily. I even get aware to the point of why am I doing this and then I just stare into blank space.
When I was in 5th grade I acted goofy so that all the guys liked me and they did but that was only for one year and idk wtf was up with middle school but suddenly I was a hero to a zero.
So I could be a 3 without having to work tirelessly? I think about others all the time. I even thought if I had to go back and redo high school, I would've taken drama classes.
Ok you're starting to sound real convincing ingrids but so was another member at vent last night saying I was a core 9. Although for most times as a 9 I don't relate to 8 or 1 really except when I get into certain moods.
I guess my perfectionistic is to impress others and not really for myself. I could care less what I think if everyone else is loving it. But still needs to be authentic. Like I'd hate to be liked for something over popularized like Star Wars because it's then that not really me. Also I do agree I have narcissistic tendencies but definitely not a narcissist myself.
I always felt like I could flip the switch and get people to love me but at the end of the day it was my goal to get people to like me for who I truly was and I would go on in depression for the sake of it and avoid all those who liked the image of me but rather those that loved me for who I was.
I did also tend to go for women who dressed well or were good looking and fit a cool personality type. Although when I was younger I was too needy or desperate to get them to like me. It wasn't until I was college age I could master the personality of a suave man but it feels so unnatural.