It makes sense as I am a 9. I think I am just a fluctuating 9. At my best I work consistently and gain easy admiration like a 3. When I am at my worst I am empty and have paranoia like a 6 looking for something else to fill me when it's my own energy from my own suppressed emotions. I guess I felt 4 like once I started dealing with my emotions buried deep.
I know you guys are tired of me hopping around. But that is how the game is.
I tend to be very catatonic anyway, and I do not work harder if I am feeling bad. I just stop and dissociate.
I wonder right before I die, will I dissociate, be present, or asleep? Assuming I go by old age.
Why you looking for a harmony?
There is harmony in everything
It's a butterfly who waits for wind
To fly away
If you're looking for a dream girl
I'll never be your dream girl
Living in the real world
Looking for a dream girl