I tend to feel emotions more deeply than other people and I'm afraid to show it lest people start to drift away and they actually do. I'm very unconventional too to the point I know I break many social norms everyday and I feel like they only get in the way than help me. I don't have friends really in college and I hate it but at the same time I sort of understand why but I don't want to change really because it isn't "me".
I look for individuals who stand out but can be eloquent at the same time. I know I'm not the perfect example either and sometimes I feel what I want isn't always real. I tend to notice how people feel after the fact after I have thought it through and that's often too late for most.
People like me because I am myself I never feel like it's work to get people to like me. Primarily it's because people find it so funny that I can see opposing viewpoints so painfully there that they just love me for it. It gets tiring to keep listing the other side to get people to like me though. I only often mention the other side because I want to let people know that I actually think the whole thing through not just to be charming or sweet necessarily.
Haha I just tend to forget about everyone else.
Oh yeah and depending on what I wear I get tons of looks of contempt where I'm actually pissed off people can't just keep their tastes to themselves and this is probably Fe I stop wearing it because I feel so ostracized from just their looks. Although some days I can just walk and look at no one and I'm okay.
ETA: okay I break some social norms, not tons lol. I go to a religious college and while it's safe and cheap. I feel like nobody here can relate to me because I'm agnostic and technically I'm not supposed to be here because I have left the faith but it's cheap and I'm kind of a little far in. It's a bit morally ambiguous and I hate it.
It's a rule for men to have their hair short and shave everyday. I do the latter more but I like having longer hair but not super long. I know I stand out because I break that rule and really most men there don't. I skip church which is also a requirement there. I sometimes swear which you shouldn't there. And I let my roommates break some rules which is a rule that you should tell on them if they break rules.
Now I could go Fe hardcore obey most of the rules the ones especially concerning appearance because unfortunately that's how people judge and wear really boring clothes everyday and lower myself to be someone who I am not and lie that I am a devout believer and blah blah blah and maybe not risk depression but possibly still will because I am not true to myself.
I would go to church if I was unsure, but now I'm more solid in not being that faith I actually get pissed for people to share what they believe which I find not to be true. I keep leaving church angry I don't think an Fe user would care because these people are not advocating to hurt others or debase other people. I just find it utterally false and people not thinking for themselves and blindly accepting authority.
Do you see why it's so hard for me to pick a functional axis?
Thread: Random Thought Thread
03-16-2016, 09:17 AM #61351obviously you're going to get nothing from reading this
03-16-2016, 09:51 AM #61352
^ I talk too much. Lol
More fuel to the Fi fire: when I was a teenager I felt I had to be extremely morally pure of course I got bullied for being too goody goody. I never swore and if I did ... It wasn't good.
It wasn't until as time went on that people weren't as real as I thought they were. As a kid, I had a foolish assumption that people were generally trying their best all the time and fell short and there were only a few bad apples out there. It wasn't until my mission that appearance was the ultimate goal of many and that's when I woke up.obviously you're going to get nothing from reading this
03-16-2016, 09:58 AM #61353Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.
E. A. Poe
03-16-2016, 10:03 AM #61354obviously you're going to get nothing from reading this
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03-16-2016, 10:33 AM #61358
No way same!!!!!!!!!
... OHHHH you think my devotedness to my religion when I was a kid was a strong sense of loyalty? I mean I hardly participated in church activities and always felt like an outcast. I never really believed but I felt like if I made myself live a virtuous life maybe something miraculous would happen to me. I felt I was a sinner for not believing at the time.obviously you're going to get nothing from reading this
03-16-2016, 10:38 AM #61359
I am officially autistic which is gonna make typing me impossible lol so I am just gonna go with a type and stick to that and not think much of it.
03-16-2016, 10:40 AM #61360obviously you're going to get nothing from reading this