I've thought it would be great if I could Rip van Winkle my way through life. Sleep for twenty years and wake up to find that life is different. Or to just evaporate and be forgotten by everyone who ever knew me. Trying to ignore how low and exhausted I felt didn't make things better in the long run, unfortunately.
I don't think anyone expects or wants you to hide how you're feeling.
I grew up in a household where no-one really offered anyone any proper emotional support, or were very open with their feelings to be fair. We never sat down and discussed feelings or any real counselling. You just grew a pair and moved on and never spoke about it.
"You feel like shit? Relax, it'll go away soon. Don't think about it."
"Chill Brah, you're overreacting. Don't cry!"
The truth is that I am not a very emotional person, or very open with my emotions. But when I am, I want to discuss it and know why I feel this way and how to fix it. How to fix all my problems and move on for good. You know? You can't just ignore shit and expect everything to be fine. You have to take the issue, grab it by the horns and kill it off. If you don't, then it'll just eat you from the inside out.
I learned this the hard way. Actually, I learn a lot of things the hard way. Now I try to think more before I act. Or emote. I do what needs to be done and don't have any second guesses. Even if it takes me a few weeks to sort myself out. You know? Three weeks is better than a lifetime of unanswered questions and unnecessary baggage.
Originally Posted by Vulcan
So I'm going to see this movie twice. Once by myself, and once with family members. I'm anxious about someone spoiling it for me. Besides, I really, really need a distraction right now.
If I knew how to help you, Buddy, I would. I would chill with you for a whole day, but at the moment I am trying to sort out my own problems. If I come across something to help us both out, I'll let you know. There is no point in the sick being invincible to mankind.
Just got back. Woo that was amazing. I was dancing with a girl up front in front of mija. This random cute girl wanted me to hold her hand the whole time we danced. Felt like an ending of an awesome chick flick. I might share a pic later on (like later today since it is already tomorrow in member picture time)