"Bang, bang" she said, and I died.
I feel myself getting ironic about everything, and slowly becoming more hysterical over almost anything.
I wish I could evade this descent into madness. In a scientific way it is somewhat fascinating to observe how my mind deteriorates, but I do not have time to ruin my future and my life.
Of course, my brain thinks of desperate one way solutions for my troubles. Shut the bloody hell up and start behaving properly!