I can't say those are my reasons. Fearing for my
I think a lot of my hesitancy to open with other men really just comes from being gay. I feel like if I do anything expressive, or touch them, or anything that I am crossing a line since they're likely to be straight. It's complicated. Sexual things make me uneasy and it's frustrating.
That's also another reason why I don't like being friends with men. If I touch them or express myself in front of them I'd risk being called a queer creep.
That's not to say that I have had lasting relationships with gay men. If anything I'm just as hesitant.