If that is how you think about god, then what led you to believe there is one in the first place? It would seem impossible to be aware of or even interested in something that is undefinable, unprovable and so ultimately unknowable. Please answer with as much logic and as little name-dropping as you can.
We have the capacity to put aside our critical mind for a while and enter the cloud of unknowing.
The book, The Cloud of Unknowing, was written in the later half of the 14th century by Anonymous, indeed the very same Anonymous who built the Gothic Cathedrals.