I was just wondering how often people generally consider what they are good at, for a given value of good which has to be compared with others for any real sense of worth that is.
For example despite my often negative self-appraisal I can at least admit I am decent at some tasks when compared with others. I'm using the context of comparing with others because to me that is the only honest reality of assessing ability. I get the whole "believe in yourself and your own sense of worth" stuff but I don't believe in that myself. Since we are a competitive species always trying to top or better ourselves in relation to someone else. But anyway I think there is an importance of delusion in ourselves in order to function in a notion of reality.
We cannot exist in objective reality because we have no way of knowing what that is, however we can attempt to understand the abstract ideals of what an objective reality might contain if we tried to examine ourselves. This is sounding like text book nihilism but an inflated sense of reality when it comes to ones own abilities appears to be the only coping method that stops us completely self destructing overnight. We're still doing this of course, but at a slower rate. In any case what happens when a person apparently has no ability to compare with others, or a complete lack in their own reality of what it is they bring to the table of human worth, is an individual level of that destruction which has consequences for the individual and those around him/her. The solution might seem available to some individuals, but it is never relevant to all individuals and many go through life with the burden of this inadequacy and so end up perpetually seeking a sense of worth.
I wonder if I can generate something to help someone like that and so myself too. Selfish but mutually so. I need to create more solutions..right? Poor humans.