I agree I only enjoy it in the winter or autumn when it's power is diminished.
'Consciousness is not simply a sensory-perceptual affair, a matter of mental imagery, as the contents of our mind would have us believe. It is deeply enmeshed with the brain mechanisms that automatically promote action readiness' - Jaak Panksepp
I really don't like how Ariana Grande tries to look soft in her pictures. I find it so grating because she has that look of pity and a certain form of delicateness. There's also her very small frame and all that just makes me think 'doe eyed deer' and it's like... so ugh. I get this sense that it'd be easy to break her.
I had a strange nightmare last night about creepy ghosts in my bedroom. First thing I did after waking up was walk over to Mom's bedroom as if I were 7 years old again, and give her a big hug and a kiss (her surgery is this morning, she will be back in a couple of days after her recovery).
Mom's surgery had better go well today, or else I'm not sparing the doctors.
Only she who attempts the absurd can achieve the impossible... and then some.
All is well, just qualified to go all expense paid to Kansas City (my companies HQ is located there) for a conference that all the top first year advisors in my company go to. Spending tons of time with the GF . We ate dinner at the yacht club last night and I got to introduce her to my grandma who was there playing bridge. Then we watched Zero Dark Thirty which she loved.
My boss is out of town for the next couple of days and she asked me to help train the new guy while she was away.
Your representative owes you, not his industry only, but his judgment; and he betrays, instead of serving you, if he sacrifices it to your opinion.
- Edmund Burke
Notice that when one puts some sand in a cup of water, the sand is clearly visible. It can be moved around with your fingers but it never really becomes fully integrated with the water. The notion that drops of water put in a cup can simply just merge and become one giant substance of water is not entirely accurate. The human eye is limited in that it can only see so much to see that it is altogether as one giant unit of existence. Just like it is empirically possible to remove the sand as well as other toxic chemicals from the cup of water, it certainly should be entirely within the realm of possibility to separate and derive drops of water from that same cup in which drops of water were merged. Individuality is still maintained.
According to the dictionary, individuality is defined as follows:
4. state or quality of being individual; existence as a distinct individual.
I was receiving daily phone calls from a call center for a couple of weeks, sometimes 3-4 times a day. At first, I politely informed them I wasn't interested, which didn't work. Then I impolitely informed them I wasn't interested, which still didn't work. Then I decided that two can play the harassment game. So I called them repeatedly for several days, over and over again, and sat in silence until they hung up. It's amazing how effective the silent treatment coupled with obnoxious mouth-breathing can be. Needless to say, they haven't called me back since. When you've successfully trolled the trolls, you know you've done a good job.
Should I feel bad for wanting to be left completely alone when I'm in the privacy and comfort of my own home? I don't want guests, I don't want someone to knock on the door, I don't want someone to call, I don't want pets. I don't want neighbors! When I'm an adult and if I can afford eventually I'll live somewhere far away from people, because when I'm in my private mode, I don't want anyone to see me at all. Here, neighbors always do. Leave me alone! The strange thing is, I desire interpersonal love and public fame so much, yet I'm also like this - impetuously private and avoiding.
Should I feel bad for wanting to be left completely alone when I'm in the privacy and comfort of my own home? I don't want guests, I don't want someone to knock on the door, I don't want someone to call, I don't want pets. I don't want neighbors! When I'm an adult and if I can afford eventually I'll live somewhere far away from people, because when I'm in my private mode, I don't want anyone to see me at all. Here, neighbors always do. Leave me alone!
No, I don't think there's any reason to feel bad about wanting your space & having uninterrupted alone time. I make it a point to never really interact with neighbors when I move anywhere. I'm polite but never stop to chat or anything. This establishes an understood pattern that I'm one of those people ''keep to themselves'' - and people tend to let me be, without feeling personally insulted/slighted.
I don't feel like I need a sense of neighborhood community at all. I hate people showing up unannounced (unless it's a legit emergency, of course). I'd say it's just a personal comfort zone/introvert "mental recharging" thing. Of course it's a matter of degrees- I know plenty of introverts who don't mind people showing up or calling randomly. I don't mind phone calls, I can always not answer if I'm not up for a chat. The people who matter will always understand. I mean, the occasional text to let people know I didn't die & I'm just doing my 'fallling off the planet' thing is always helpful, too. Usually ensures I'm given the space I need with little potential for conflict. But yeah, I'd say it's not inherently bad to want some uninterrupted solitude. In fact, I think it can be very healthy.
03/23 06:06:58 EcK: lex
03/23 06:06:59 EcK: lex
03/23 06:21:34 Nancynobullets: LEXXX *sacrifices a first born*
03/23 06:21:53 Nancynobullets: We summon yooouuu
03/23 06:29:07 Lexicon: I was sleeping!
04/25 04:20:35 Patches: Don't listen to lex. She wants to birth a litter of kittens. She doesnt get to decide whats creepy
02/16 23:49:38 ygolo: Lex is afk
02/16 23:49:45 Cimarron: she's doing drugs with Jack
03/05 19:27:41 Time: You can't make chat morbid. Lex does it naturally.