I was walking the dog, and our cat tagged along as always. I was feeling moody because of intense, inevitable shame that fills me up as soon as I'm in a public place in my sloppy clothes - the stuff I wear when I just spend days and days at home, not really caring about what looks good. Normally I live in a quiet neighborhood filled with old people, so I'm not too bothered for things such as walking the dog. But this time there were some attractive girls about my age out there, it made me frustrated and I tried avoiding them by choosing a different path, but there's only so many paths. We had to cross paths. By then I decided to just pick up the dog and head on home, thinking I'll walk the dog in an hour or so instead. But one of the girls was quick, she said something to me about my cat being really adorable, but in my anger I just looked down to the ground and walked away, not saying anything. I feel bad about it now. How could anyone possibly understand my behavior and appreciate me for who I am? I scare people away through rudeness, I always regret it but I never learn.
Oh you noticed that too, did you? Don't worry even if you lurk the eventual assimilation will happen. One day you wake up and the place doesn't seem as creepy anymore.
That's when it has you.
Hahahaha! Though that doesn't happen with me. I just keep noticing the creepy, sometimes almost like watching a train wreck or one that would happen at the drop of a metaphorical hat ... it's why I don't really participate here. Any substantive participation really invokes the creepy, for me. But hey, the vibe here obviously works for various other people, so there's that.
so i accidently paid comcast 95 dollars twice. I have a 95 dollar credit on my account, accept now I don't have money in my account til tommorow well I have 46 dollars and i got the fpl deposit back and put that in the bank but don't really have the money til it clears tomorrow. so i'm good I just was planning on running errands today and tried to take out 80 after i deposited the check I couldn't. and now I have to wait til tommorow