“That we are capable only of being what we are remains our unforgivable sin.” ― Gene Wolfe
reminder to self: "That YOU that you are so proud of is a story woven together by your interpreter module to account for as much of your behavior as it can incorporate, and it denies or rationalizes the rest." "Who's in Charge? Free Will and the Science of the Brain" by Michael S. Gazzaniga
I wish I could read, watch TV, listen to music, go online, and draw all at the same time. I don't feel satisfied just doing one at a time.
I can't get my mind off the others and I can't concentrate. As I'm typing this I'm watching a music video while drawing, what the fuck is wrong with me??! I used to have an attention span once!
I sometimes wonder what cuddling is like, but I very seldom wonder what sex is like. Why am I writing this? I do not know. What I'm getting at is that there's this attractive and special girl I've been talking to a lot the last three weeks, and she seems to be really into me, which surprises me a lot. We also understand each other a lot, we are both very socially inhibited. But she is more cheery, quirky, colorful and physical than I am. If I had to guess I would say she's ISFP 6w7. Stereotypically, our differences therefore makes sense.
Now I haven't had much feelings for her, I've been feeling very indifferent towards it, though I've been nice to her (and more) and I was actually the one to start talking to her. I don't remember why. And all of a sudden I really want to cuddle with her and be all romantic, she would be my only friend in the world.
But there is a problem, she lives so far away, and I wonder, is it me that she likes, or is it the online identity of me that she likes? Would she have liked me if we met in real life instead? Because the real me is much uglier and has the charm of a brick. But I want to cuddle with her. And all of those things.
Ooh, have you exchanged photos so you each have a sense of the other's physical presence? I think if you establish a pretense of reservation it wouldn't be surprising/disappointing. It may even be preferable.