*Starting to think this should be in the rant thread instead.*
Nothing like being told you are needed back at work the next day to paralyse any attempts at relaxation or doing things you really want to do.
Fucking infuriating, I really....really hate this planned world. Everything set into blocks, no time for the incidental, always rushed, always pressured. Do do do fucking do, or don't, or can't, or not allowed, or won't.
But of course! It's necessary it's always fucking necessary, just not to me. Obligations, what a giant heap of festering, mouldy fuck-shit.
They don't exist but everyone thinks they do so enforcement it is. And if anyone desires a slight bit of happiness, fuck em, get them in line.
I find I'm generally content when no one else is, usually because it's an environment without intense control or rigid enforcement of "how things should be" so I am relaxed and quietly minding my own business. Suddenly then, I am the one who is at fault for not being rushed, or stressed, so it's time to get me stressed and pissed off so I can be like everyone else, thanks...cheers...have another one.
Everything is so important, so universally important, FUCK, that paperwork needs to be done, that stock has to be put away...because it's important.
What's that? You're ill? How can anyone be ill? You don't have a disease or serious malady of the body and as we all know; illness only exists in the apparent physical body. Back to work with you!
Let's never examine our lives, lets not take a close look at the pathetic scrambling, the arrogant posturing, the mad scurrying about.
Surely if people JUST....GOT....WITH....THE....PROGRAM...
Everyone is just the same aren't they?
BUT THEY FUCKING AREN'T!
So stop pretending they are. You useless fucking blobs of shit.
'Consciousness is not simply a sensory-perceptual affair, a matter of mental imagery, as the contents of our mind would have us believe. It is deeply enmeshed with the brain mechanisms that automatically promote action readiness' - Jaak Panksepp