I don't like to go on about my self doubt, but there are times when I feel it so strongly and I become so frozen, it becomes a self-fufiling prophecy. And then I have to try to explain whats hindering me those who have no inkling of my whole wretched internal theater.
Once when I was struggling with some higher math, the tutor who helped me the most was a person like family, and together we could just leisurely hang out while I did my work. With this special person, I felt no hesitation about asking for help. He later said that I knew everything, I got the concepts, all I needed throughout the process of figuring out the problems was someone encouraging me, someone I didn't feel like I was burdening. Once I had that traction, I was able to surprise myself.
Its not like I'm always seeking external validation. My own sense of propriety steers me away from seeming too needy. But a little praise can go far. Truthfully, I'm so in my own head, it can resemble a ship in the fog, hoping to spot some lighthouse signal.
If anything, I would want to be the kind of encourager of others which I myself would like to have.