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    I don't like to go on about my self doubt, but there are times when I feel it so strongly and I become so frozen, it becomes a self-fufiling prophecy. And then I have to try to explain whats hindering me those who have no inkling of my whole wretched internal theater.

    Once when I was struggling with some higher math, the tutor who helped me the most was a person like family, and together we could just leisurely hang out while I did my work. With this special person, I felt no hesitation about asking for help. He later said that I knew everything, I got the concepts, all I needed throughout the process of figuring out the problems was someone encouraging me, someone I didn't feel like I was burdening. Once I had that traction, I was able to surprise myself.

    Its not like I'm always seeking external validation. My own sense of propriety steers me away from seeming too needy. But a little praise can go far. Truthfully, I'm so in my own head, it can resemble a ship in the fog, hoping to spot some lighthouse signal.

    If anything, I would want to be the kind of encourager of others which I myself would like to have.
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    I wonder if anyone else sees or reads the "failed by the system" stuff and thinks "not even with magic could the system have done otherwise" in this instance.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Vasilisa View Post
    I don't like to go on about my self doubt, but there are times when I feel it so strongly and I become so frozen, it becomes a self-fufiling prophecy. And then I have to try to explain whats hindering me those who have no inkling of my whole wretched internal theater.

    Once when I was struggling with some higher math, the tutor who helped me the most was a person like family, and together we could just leisurely hang out while I did my work. With this special person, I felt no hesitation about asking for help. He later said that I knew everything, I got the concepts, all I needed throughout the process of figuring out the problems was someone encouraging me, someone I didn't feel like I was burdening. Once I had that traction, I was able to surprise myself.

    Its not like I'm always seeking external validation. My own sense of propriety steers me away from seeming too needy. But a little praise can go far. Truthfully, I'm so in my own head, it can resemble a ship in the fog, hoping to spot some lighthouse signal.

    If anything, I would want to be the kind of encourager of others which I myself would like to have.

    Encouragement is a delicate thing. (Complimenting too.) It's tough to give it meaningfully without sounding disingenuous, or worse. Often I find people give encouragement in a sort of childish, saccharine way (e.g. "Hang in there, champ!") that makes me feel like I'm being pandered or condescended to rather than helped. Of course that has a lot to do with doubting myself, probably more than it does genuinely doubting others' motives. I'm almost certainly guilty of doing the same sort of thing to others. When someone's clearly feeling sad or 'down' my first instinct is to ask "Why so glum, chum?", in those exact words. It's kind of childish and stupid but I'd rather ask with a bit of levity than ask with a melodramatic tone. I feel like bringing levity to the situation shows that it's possible to be in better spirits; I just hope that it doesn't swing the other way and seem as though I treat the situation too casually and don't really care.

    I don't know if anyone can fully understand how or why anyone else feels self-doubt. It can be very difficult—painful even— trying to explain, and when people don't understand (and they never seem to) my first thought is "If only they knew 'the real me'." I've come to learn that other people are a lot more perceptive than I gave them credit for, and the reason that they don't see anything wrong with me (at least in whatever respect it is that's bothering me) is not because it doesn't show. I'm not so adept at compartmentalizing or hiding my feelings that they can't tell that there's something wrong with me. It doesn't show because it's not there.

    As you said it becomes self-fulfilling; the answer to the question "What's the matter with me?" is the question itself. You might feel "But if only people knew 'the real me'!" Most people would probably not find anything 'wrong'.

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    what does it mean (if anything) when random things keep catching your eye and you have to look at them...and it's nothing...it's the red on the book on the bookshelf or the light reflecting of the silver microwave in the other room...or the doorknob...just all day long weird completely unimportant things.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Lady X View Post
    what does it mean (if anything) when random things keep catching your eye and you have to look at them...and it's nothing...it's the red on the book on the bookshelf or the light reflecting of the silver microwave in the other room...or the doorknob...just all day long weird completely unimportant things.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Lark View Post
    I wonder if anyone else sees or reads the "failed by the system" stuff and thinks "not even with magic could the system have done otherwise" in this instance.
    It has always been a point of conflict between what I wanted to believe and what actually played out before my eyes. At this point in my life, I sometimes do conclude that after a read of the facts. It's a matter of thinking about what "failed by the system" implies rather than just stopping at the initial empathetic feelings and being threatened by anything that questions them. Does it mean that the person couldn't have made it without the system? Did they objectively not have what it takes to survive without a civilized outer source to fill it in? Did they have the ability to make it, but were blocked from accessing it by something beyond or within their control? What is the real duty of this assumed support system that failed a person, and how flexible is that duty in response to people's situations and the causes of them?

    Does suffering, on merit of being painful and above all other considerations, morally obligate the alleviation of it as soon as possible, by whatever means necessary? It's not just a question for innocent little girls to bump into. It's also a question we deal with on a great scale, that cultures vacillate over and mediate.
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