I hope the weather cooperates today, cos I want to go to the beach, or do some sight-seeing. And, the internet sucks at the place I'm renting for vacation... DeviantArt is not loading at all. When I get back home I'll be able to use that site again, though. After going for a walk this morning, and getting back into the air conditioning, I'm catching a bit of a chill. Time to put on a hoodie.
“Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings -- always darker, emptier and simpler.”
― Friedrich Nietzsche
It is, its often true too though, you get to know people and can dispense with a false persona, then circumstances or time results in you having to construct another.
I'm actually under a false persona right now in some of my friendships... It hurts, but the cynic in me tells me that the time isn't right to let them know who I really am. Right now they just guess as to what my true motives are.
I had a dream that my reflection came out of the mirror and tried to kill me, and in order to save my life, I had to gouge out its eyes with my thumbs and wash it down the drain with bleach after pouring holy water on it. That says a lot about my self-image, particularly the part about gouging out its eyes.
[ Ni > Ti > Fe > Fi > Ne > Te > Si > Se ][ 4w5 sp/sx ][ RLOAI ][ IEI-Ni ]
^Intense dream Nunki! I remember bits and pieces of my dream, It seemed like a bad dream...I missed two of my best friends bdays-they were really sad, My cousin lost his job, invited me to one of his events in portland and I remember deep down inside I felt bad because I didnt want to go, I beat my friends crazy little brother up for disrespecting my mom. I saw a black centipede in my dream which seemed symbolic, it was trapped in a cup so I let it go. At the end of my dream I was talking to a friend and my boyfriend interrupted and kept bugging me, asking who I was talking to so I screamed SHUT UP, which I ended up screaming it out loud in real life, it woke me up.
The dream relates to how I want to disconnect for a bit, and hide....I think? I still need to look into the black centipede thing though.